you will be remembered

she once asked me this question ... "you think, those guys who beat their girlfriend is a bad guys right?"
and so i answered ... "definitely, those guys are total bastards and also trash ... having a girlfriend is to love and care them, not beat them"

i have been thinking of this question from her for days ... i dont feel comfortable these few days ... my heart is heavy and feel very uneasy ... and the main reason is obvious ... she found her new boyfriend since we broke up ... i have been wondering for days to figure out what type of guy her new boyfriend is ... and will that person be like those guys with bad guys lifestyle, and those who would beat their girlfriends ...

i found out the answer last night ... i dont know how to describe my reaction ... i was frustrated and pissed off to know that she return back to her ex boyfriend who beaten her last time ... after my answer on her question, she further states that she will never return to that guy again for what he had done to her in the past ... and now, the conclusion is ... she return back to him ... i'm not very sure on what she is thinking ... perhaps the saying is true ... in chinese proverbs, there is this verse saying "nan ren bu huai, nv ren bu ai" ... it meant woman wont like those guys who are good but they will fall badly for the bad ones ... i'm not so sure of the creditworthiness of this verse ... but if we applies it here ... it is true ...

i admit i'm dissapointed with this action of hers ...

but this action had thought me to give up ... stop the wait ... theres more things to be done besides waiting ... whenever i faces dissapointment, frustrated with myself, i will look at the sky ... the wide sky had thought me to see things in a bigger and wider dimension ... and it works ...

so what is the conclusion, the conclusion is ... i will put the courage to click on the delete button to delete off your pictures ... delete the poem that i've written for you ... before this, those are medicines to cure my drugs on you ... by seeing your personal message had made my heart numb ... those medicines dont work anymore ... so what is the point of keeping it ? i got to find a brand new medicine to cure the dissapointment ... and i know the only way is to stand back up myself ...

here, i wish you ... happy always with the person that you love ... pray that he wont repeat his bad actions and you would influence him to become a good man ... wishing you ... happy and good luck in your life ...

lastly, you will be remembered ...

time to move on ... the songs "move along" by the all american rejects really help ...

live life to the max ... cheers =)