My Life

Jason Yeah. Who dont know this person if you are in UTAR. This is the feedback i got from most of my friends.

I might be a popular person even I don't know I am. A friend of mine, Abigail Tan actually had green eye as the number of hi i received from the person who knows me is higher than her. She even tell her friends that I got a lot of friends and contacts. This is true though. A lot of people knows me even i do not know them. Sometimes, they come by and say hi to me and have a chat with me but i do not have any idea who they are. I was just like talking to a stranger.

Eventhough I might seems to have a lot of friends. But, I do not have any friends that could actually share my heart out. I do not have close friends where we would play together, eat together, study together and enjoy life together. I repeat. I dont have that kind of friends!

These few days, I was wondering why my friends always say my networking is wide and they are jealous because of this. In my life, there are only hi and bye friends. Sometimes, I also wonders why dont I have friends that I could really rely and trust on. For some people, they have friends that they are very very close to and could share everything out. I wonder, WHY didnt I have that type of friends.

I was eating dinner and lunch alone these few days. Trying to make myself happier by saying I would love to spend my time being alone. That didnt work really well when i see other tables full of laughters among themselves. They share same topic, laughter and they enjoy their time being together very much. And I'm envy of that.

This post is not reflecting I'm being emo. I was just wondering why people jealous of me having so many friends while I'm envy of them for having real good and close friends. Nothing more than that.

Still, everybody leads their own life. Perhaps this is mine.

Anyhow, dont forget to

Live life to the max! =)